Alice’s Army Shirt

Thank you for being here. Rather than “storyteller”, I was labeled “newspaper reporter” and a straight up liar, at a very early age.To this day, I’m easily sent spinning when someone attempts to make me question the truth, even though I have been working diligently, for years (decades), at becoming a calm observer, instead of an explosive reactor. A childhood of swallowing one’s anger, pain, and truth can cause one to become reactive. Though I strive to accept responsibility for all of my behaviors some folks actually enjoy being button pushers. Sadly, for survivors of abuse, sometimes those buttons are deeply embedded in trauma trigger points. Much as I hate being triggered, these days, Alice’s Army Shirt just make me stronger. People are always wanting for me to suck it up and get over it… but, first, I had to go through it, and process the experiences.

Alice’s Army Shirt, Hoodie, Sweater, Longsleeve T-Shirt

They don’t just miraculously dissolve into the ether. The only way out is through. Still working on some stuff but proud of all the growth accomplished. I couldn’t do it without the help of the wonderful Humans responsible for pages like this one. Thanks for the opportunity to release a much-needed vent. I have no doubt that I was considered the black sheep long before I ever started to rebel against the Alice’s Army Shirt of the family or the world. I wear that label with pride now because I have survived where others in my family and my situation have not. I can relate I was labeled to sensitive as a child so no one believe my feelings. Then I was labeled crazy: but stuck with me so now years later no one listens to me. I used those lies but mot any more.